I know I have never met you, but I know you exist.
Dear Oniichan... I'm so tired. I'm so tired of him Oniichan.
"You worthless piece of shit."

Dear Oniichan, I wish you were here by my side.
Maybe if you were I wouldn't cry so much.
"If you cry, I'll give you something to cry about"

Dear Oniichan, I wish you could protect me from them,
I don't know what the truth is anymore
"You dumbfuck"
I know he is right though.

Dear Oniichan, I'm sorry to be bothering you so much. You're just never around.
I wish you could see what he did to both me and her.
His ugly laughter, Oniichan I can't take it.

Dear Oniichan, she is still crying. I don't know why.
He is gone, I miss him but I'm so glad
I've never felt so at peace before.

Dear Oniichan, he came back today. She smiled but I know she didn't mean it.
I'm scared Oniichan but I'm glad he's here. We can be a family again.

Dear Oniichan, something is wrong. He went crazy again and hit her. Why is he doing this Oniichan? Why is he hurting her so much?

Dear Oniichan, I don't like being with him anymore. He scares me Oniichan, I wish you were here.
So you can keep me and her safe, Oniichan why can't you be here.

Dear Oniichan, she got new bruises on her eyes. She lies to everyone about them, even me. I know what goes on Oniichan, she sometimes forgets I was there. Oniichan her bruises scare me.

Dear Oniichan, she cried all day today, I can see it. She couldn't really move her body and it was so painful to look at. I don't know why she pretends to smile when I know she wants to cry so badly. I never cried when he did this to her oniichan, I don't know why. Is there something wrong with me?

Dear Oniichan, I'm getting older now. I'm turning 5 today. I don't want a birthday party anymore. Whenever we do have one bad things happen. Actually, the always happen. Maybe now that I'm older I can protect her, don't you think Oniichan?

Dear Oniichan, I was taken out early from school today, I'm 7 now. The police are here along with her. They keep asking her questions, one after another. I saw bruises on her face oniichan, red hand prints on her face and around her neck. I was a little confused Oniichan, but somehow I knew it had to do with him.

Dear Oniichan, he left us again. I wonder where he left, I will sure miss him. She is a lot happier now, but sometimes when I stay up hours past my bedtime and sit outside her door, I can hear her crying. Why does she cry Oniichan?

Dear Oniichan, I'm almost 8 now. For a long while we haven't heard from him. There's sometimes phone calls with a machine talking, she says not to answer them, but I know it's him. Like a good girl, I do what I'm told. She's never home now.

Dear Oniichan, it's been so long since we were all together. She works a lot now, and I still go to school. When I go to my friend's birthday parties sometimes I get jealous. They have both, and I don't. She is still working, I sometimes stay up to meet her when she comes home.
Other times I can't, I'm just so tired. I feel so lonely, why can't you be here Oniichan?

Dear Oniichan, two years have passed now. I'm about to turn 10. He came back today, I greeted him and welcomed him home. She did too. This is the 2nd summer we have actually been together. I feel kinda happy, but I'm scared too. I'm almost gonna enter Middle School, next year. I can't wait.

Dear Oniichan, I'm 11 now. It has been peaceful for a while. She and him have argued a lot, but mostly when I'm not around. It looks like she doesn't have bruises on her face anymore, but sometimes when I peek at her when she changes, I see them on her tummy and legs. The bruises look so big, so dark. Her bruises still scare me.

Dear Oniichan, after not going to the park for so long, today we decided to go. I didn't want to, I was afraid. I felt like something really bad was going to happen. I still went anyway. He got really intoxicated, I was a little frightened. Later on that same day, night time, he got really scary. She told me to stay in the car. I didn't know what was going on. She got in, she was out of breath, she stepped on the gas pedal so hard I almost flew out of me seat. He was following us, in his silver car. She got her phone and asked me to call the police. "Down by the fairgrounds, a red car and a silver car, please hurry" He came out behind us, and hit the rear of her red car, Thump, one hit, she screamed and I sat there. Thump, second hit I hit my head on the front of the car, I got a little dizzy. Thump, third hit and we both screamed. He got out and tapped on her window, yelling for her to roll it down. She refused, he got back in and she got out of the car, yelling for help to all of the people who would drive by. She got back in and tried to step on it again. He was close behind, and hit us again. Thump, fourth his, we spun around till the car hit the curb, the helicopter with the bright light came around, he got into his car again and drove off. We sat there and lights flashed into my eyes. I was blinded but could see figures. We got out and saw him being taken into handcuffs and inside the police car. She started to worry.

Dear Oniichan, it's been a month since that happened. I entered Middle School now. I don't know why but I felt so distant. All of the other kids so happy. I want to be just like them. It was fun though, I would sometimes get taken out of school because she had to go to something called "Court".


Dear Oniichan, it's been two years now, she is still going to court. I know what it is now, I learned it in school. I overheard her on the phone saying that if he kept pleading not guilty, they would make his sentence longer. How much longer though? It's been two years now. Whats going on? I miss a lot of school, because mum can't go to the courts and leave me here. She made me write a letter to the judge, so he can come out. The letters we got from him would pile out, each one saying the same thing. "I'm sorry".


Dear Oniichan, I'm almost 14 now, and he came out, he's with us now. A little thin, and he changed a lot.I'm so glad Oniichan, I hope life gets better for all of us. When he was away I had to take care of her. I had to be the strong one, for both of us.






Dear Oniichan, a few good months have past. He went back to his old ways. But he doesn't hit just her now, me too. Why does he hurt us Oniichan? "You stupid dumbfucks, worthless pieces of shit!" Oniichan whats happening? I thought he changed.


Dear Oniichan, I woke up late tonight, and I smelled something weird. It was a horrible smell, It made me so sick. I asked my new friends in High School what it was. They say it was something called "Meth". "Your ____ does meth?"


Dear Oniichan, I don't like going home anymore. We all constantly fight. defend her as well as I can but when he hits me it hurts so badly. Last time I had to go to the hospital, and made up an excuse about falling. Oniichan what's going on? Why does he hurt us?

Dear Oniichan, it's summer time and I'm almost 15. Her family is here, and he puts up such a front. I know he does his drugs when they're not home. I know he watches his filth when they're not home. He hits me when they're not looking. Why Oniichan, whats going on?

Dear Oniichan, I try my best not to cry when he forces me to do something. I try not to cry when he hits me, I try so hard. I'm so tired Oniichan. He mentions something about him not being my real blood, and she too. I don't know if it's true. Is it Oniichan?


Dear Oniichan, he said it again, while I gasped for breath and held my ribcage, he said it again. She was there and she didn't deny it. So it is true... Oniichan I'm so scared. What do I do now? I'm 16 now. He will change, and he is lying. We will be a family again right Oniichan? I forgive him Oniichan I forgive him.

Dear Oniichan, he hit me again. " If you don't like it then get the hell out of my house!" Oniichan, I want to run away. I want to run away so far away. "Everything in this room, this house is mine! Nothing is yours!" He is right oniichan, I need to leave this place and quick. Oniichan, I think I will go insane if I don't. "You worthless piece of shit! You can't do crap!" Oniichan, it's hard not having any kind of talent. I know I'm not smart either. He is right, he is so right.


Dear Oniichan, he explained it all to me. My past, his past, her past. Not much he knew about my own. He didn't know here I came from. Only she knows, he said. I want to ask her but I'm afraid. "Don't let her know you know, she will hate me" I think she already does..." Don't let her know you know, she might kill herself, she is not well" Neither are any of us..


Dear Oniichan, who do I trust when I've been hurt and lied to? The man who hurts and abuses both me and her. Or the woman who lied to me my entire life. And supposedly, hurt him and his relationship with his family too. Oniichan, I'm so tired. I'm so scared, I'm so lost. "You worthless bitch!"

Dear Oniichan, I wish you were here. Maybe then I wouldn't cry so much. When no one is looking. I try my best not to, he said only weak people do. I wish you were here oniichan.


Dear Oniichan, I wish you were real.